Wednesday, 26th April
Ben woke me early. We did not have
time for a leisurely morning. We both had appointments at the gym. I
used the sauna while Ben did some shopping. We met to go home
together. I cooked lunch. Ben had homework to do. It was a quiet
lunch. Afterwards he wanted to do some more studying and went to his
room. I went upstairs to do some work myself. Ben turned up with one
of the exercise books he uses to write his diary. He explained he had
thought about our discussion, and his talk with B made him understand
me, but it took him some time to make the decision. He told me I
could speak to Barbara or have the privilege to read the section
about his dream in his diary I had to find it myself, as he did not
want to know. He thought if I knew, I could help him if he is
confronted by a rubber situation. I had not expected that! I thanked
him for trusting me with his diary. I laid it to the side. I had to
think about it. After about an hour I suggested we take a break. We
went for a walk.
Ben prepared dinner. Afterwards he
wanted to talk. He said he is tired of being him. The time with Ruth
had been so intense. Me going back to work. If he could leave himself
behind, just for a few days. I suggested maybe he could go on a
retreat, maybe even somewhere warm. He was not keen, as he did not
want to be with strangers. We tossed a few ideas around, when he
suddenly suggested he could go to Dalarna. I thought it was an
excellent idea. I said what about school? He reckoned he can cope. We
phoned Trude and she was happy to have him there. He is going on
Friday morning. Wow.
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