So, I am on my own!

Friday, 28^th April

It was strange putting him onto the train. He was excited. We talked last night, in bed, after sex. We both had decided against bondage. He thought he would not be able to relax, and I was not quite in the mood, either. I had given him the diary back earlier. We did not talk about it. I requested can he elaborate that I treat him like a child. That comment had hit me really hard. He was hesitant. He did not think it was the time and place to talk about it. I said I need to know before you go away. I am over protective. And with his digestion. He could not really give specific examples. He regretted saying it. I commented, you would not have said it if you did not feel it. And I admitted, I am over protective and I am trying to work on it. We did not resolve it, I guess we just have to give it time. At least we are talking, and not bottling it up. Something was on his mind, he was fidgeting. I brought up our sleeping arrangements. I asked what he wanted to do. He admitted he would like to stay with me. That is what I wanted. We fell asleep in each others arms. Oooh.

We left for the station in the late morning, he had to clean himself first. I went to the gym for a short session. We took a taxi to the station. We have bought an open ticket, we have not made plans how long he will stay. I am starting work on Tuesday. It is M/s night tonight, people will be surprised we are not there. I went to the club this afternoon, while they were getting ready. I had a long talk with Martin. I was tempted to tell him Ben's experience, it has been on my mind. I wish I did not know. I had messaged Barbara yesterday, we have arranged to Skype. I have a bottle of wine here. I must be really messed up, drinking by myself. He phoned me to say he had arrived safely. He sounded tense, but happy.

I have arranged to spend Walpurgis eve with Stephan tomorrow. He will probably take me drinking!