Tuesday, 28th March
It is still very cold and the snow
is not melting.
Ben and I had some time in the
playroom last night, we experimented with some bondage. He needed it
after a quiet afternoon. That's not true, I had been thinking about
it all afternoon and came up with a scene. I almost feel sorry for
people who live vanilla. Bondage is so exciting. It brings Ben and me
closer together, it is an experience one cannot share at all. If
people film it or take photos, people looking at it will not be able
to feel the atmosphere, they do not share the emotions. When I first
got into it, I was sometimes a bit scared, when I experienced
something new. But one has to trust the Master. It is all about trust
and relaxing and just let it happen. Then it is the best experience.
As a Master of course I have to think about what I am doing, I cannot
loose control. I have to be careful where I position a belt, so it
does not cut off circulation or can cause damage to tissue, but still
has an effect. It is also about the psychology, in which order do I
do things. Do I talk, or just get on with it. How is my demeanour?
Does the sub relax, does he trust me? Sometimes, like last night, I
try something, and it is not good. Sometimes it is not immediately
obvious, and Ben can be too submissive and rather put up with pain
than say something. He was very patient with me last night and was
very willing. In the end we found a position we were both happy with
and he quietly enjoyed the bounds for an hour. I released him very
quickly, which he does not like. But I needed to get control again.
Today I went to the gym and did a
good work out, followed by sauna. Ben is out of the house all day. I
went shopping with our elderly neighbour on the bus. She says she is
ok to walk her dogs.
I am looking forward to go to
meditation. We kind of had meditation last night, but this is nice,
too.
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