Ben needs some bondage

Sunday, 24^th April

Ben is out walking Django. We needed some time alone.

I suggested a scene yesterday afternoon, it was raining, we were both reading. I wanted to put him into the metal constraints system, for some reason my Master called it The Milkmaid, and have him in the living room. He was hesitant. He liked it when I had him in it before. He asked: and then?

I answered: nothing, I just like to see you in it. He answered, of course, if I really wanted it, he would do it, but he was not comfortable with the idea. It surprised me, he liked it before. He said he had a problem with “being on display”. That was Robert's thing. I am not sure if it was the memory of Robert, or the idea of being displayed that was playing on his mind, he excused himself and went to his cell. He has not been in one of those moods since Robert died. I left him alone for about 30 minutes, then I knocked and entered. He was lying on his cot, he had been crying. He said he did not know what it was, he suddenly felt weighed down. He started to cry again, I took him into my arms and rocked him. I think he finally cried for Robert. It took about 45 minutes for him to calm down, he developed hiccups again. We had a very quiet evening, he was not good company. He was so distant again. That distance was still there this morning. He noticed it as well, he said he wanted some time, I agreed it was a good idea. I suggested he take Django out. I thought the dog might get him out of his mood. When he got back he was brighter, but there was still this sadness back in is eyes. He made himself a drink and had a snack, we had planned to eat a late lunch, early dinner. I knew something was on his mind he did not dare to ask me. I confronted him about it and he asked to be put into bondage, very tight leather straps or something. I bound him to the chair, with the works. Blindfold, gag, big collar, white noise, lots of straps, tightened again. I secured a vibrator in his vagina, with a big dildo up his ass. The belt was still on. I slowly increased the vibrations. Because where his testes are, a vibrator up his vagina teases the sperm ducts. He was dry after 2 hours of play and it was becoming painful. I took the vibrator out and left him tied, while I started our meal. There was a camera on him, I kept check on him. He was testing his restraints, I like the sound the leather makes. I released him in time for dinner, but left the dildo in. He was moaning so much during dinner, we had to leave our plates and I fucked him very slowly. He had a dry orgasm.

Later in the evening he returned the favour. We are back to normal.