Back to" normal"

Friday, 27^th January

I had my check-up yesterday and they decided to take he wires out there and then. I was not prepared for that, but pleased. I had a little collapse after the op, so they wanted me to stay over night. We tried to convince them that Ben can look after me, and we are so close to the hospital, but they were not having it. The anaesthetist is still in training and maybe nervous, treating a fellow doctor. My blood pressure suddenly dived. This can happen in patients, and is quite unpredictable, blood pressure is still a mystery for medical people. He panicked, and the nurse had to step in. Anyway, it is fine, I do not blame him.

My hand is now in a splint for another 2 or 3 weeks, and I have some physio coming up. Oh, Mats's tendon was not torn, but is badly strained, he is splinted and receives physio therapy. They have decided to stick more to home with their playing.

Ben said he felt terrible, so alone in the flat. He was tempted to stay with Mats and Sahid, but he could not get hold of me to check if it was ok. I felt touched that he missed me and felt he needed to check with me to spend the night in another flat with a Master I- kind of- trust. Robert trained him very well. And it is his respect for me. I do not notice it, of course, neither does Ben, but our interaction is different than a “normal” couple, I cannot describe it. When I was in hospital, when Ben brought me some over night stuff, I noticed my room mate kind of pricked his ears, and watched us from the corner of his eye. Maybe Ben called me Master, it does slip out in public sometimes. When I came back from the bathroom later, he quickly changed the topic, he was on his phone, to his wife, I assume. I think he referred to Ben as “being slow”. Just because he is quiet, and submissive even in everyday behaviour, does not make him retarded! I should take more from Ben, what does it matter what people think about our life, we will not see them again, if they want to be bigots, shame on them, but maybe, just maybe, they will learn from us and accept different life styles.